One of the most interesting things to me about becoming religish, is the way many religious systems — and indeed our own religiously influenced culture –divorces us from our god-given internal authority. Whether it’s priest or parents, teachers or texts, the societal call to be to be a “good” girl, or the fear of a grey-bearded god in the sky — we are taught to look towards others as authority figures…and to OBEY.
It’s one thing to honor our wise ones — the ancestors, the trusted guides, and the cultural traditions that nudge us towards healthy communities. But “honor” and “obey” are not synonyms. Honoring allows us to move out of our own authority, and from that internal authority, make a choice to cherish and respect.
It’s another thing all together to obey. Obedience is one way we outsource our authority — looking towards others to give us permission –to tell us how to live, and breathe, and have our being. It subverts will, and creates a hierarchical top-down power dynamic that cuts us off from our own source of power.
So how can we reconnect with our internal authority? How do we release this habit of turning towards external authority? How do we heal?
Start by honoring your desire.
Coming home to your internal authority starts when you Notice, Name and Feel what you desire. Your hungers. Your envy. Your appetites. It starts by responding to the, “Yes, this!” that springs up from pelvis, and gut, and heart, and throat.
External authorities may have told you to suppress your desires. To see them as suspect—leading you down a dark and dangerous road, tempting you to sin.
Internal authority knows better. Internal authority knows hunger can draw you to the thing which will feed you most. It’s the passion that pulls you towards…
the task your hand was meant to do.
the way your body was meant to move.
the love that makes your heart swell stronger.
That’s why all this month in Flock we’ve been paying attention to our passions and harvesting our desires. Through lessons and rituals, conversations and practice, we’ve been holding to this mantra:
“I have permission to follow what I love.”
Not permission from a priest or parents, teachers or culture. Not from a grey-bearded god in the sky. But from the god-given authority within.
What about you, friend?
Are you ready to reconnect with your internal authority?
Can you notice your desire?
Will you follow what you love?
I think you are.
I know you can.
I hope you will.
P.s. In case you need a little extra support following your desires, I wrote this blessing for Flock. We want to share it with you. Press play to listen:
May your desires burn brightly this season.
May you notice them
the ideas that live in your mind,
the heat in your body,
the nudge in your gut.
May you know,
that you Know,
that you KNOW
you have permission to pursue them.
And may all who know you
be touched by their arrival.